Chapter Three: Phase Transition

 

 
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I.  
Sunday, 10:15 am - Mortimer awake, later than usual, sitting with the contents of days in general spread out on his desk, trying to decide in particular on a composition. 

 
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Hungry… maybe an injection downtown, a ‘day-off’, like before – my grandma told me her grandparents told her about weekends (what’s that humming).  Maybe no calories … empty for a while… I feel sick anyway – she said both Saturday and Sunday mostly off and on ‘errands’… and a meal called ‘brunch’… I think like that, today – ‘reading the newspaper.’ 

maybe a walk…

I think they’ll fire me on Monday…

I should probably just walk; cardiovascular integrity even if I’ve lost everything else.

Maybe check the obligations.

“You have one new message.”

At the… beep…

       “Morty, its Art.  So look, sorry about last night…  I told her it didn’t matter to you, but Belay seems to think that the evening’s entertainment might not have been suitably comforting to our psycho in distress… meaning … yah… anyway you know my thoughts on coddled rehabilitation – I wouldn’t even have called you, but Ms. Common wants to have dinner tonight, like sit down, no injection site; Gastropod. Like we used to, thought you’d be in no matter what, so I told her yes… the morbid love to love in times of morbidity huh Morty? I’m kidding… I’m just the poet right.”
       “Gastropod.”

Mom said there were all kinds of restaurants during the Gorge; before the food controls.  Not just many things on the menu, but many restaurants and foods… now just Gastropod… now down to one.

 Maybe one is all you need?

Okay, we walk.

       “Walk.”

 
 

 

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11:15 am – Mortimer leans in what is, for him, a luxuriant manner, waiting for his injection.  He sits in a small, blindingly lit waiting room, with half a dozen other expectant faces.  Just beyond the swinging doors at the end of the small room, are even smaller rooms – after them a corridor of media terminals entertains those in possession of the time required to use them.

 
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       “Anything else.”
       “No, just the morning-aid thanks.”
       “Great I’ll just get you to scan yourself right there… okay your receipt’s been sent.”
       “Thanks.”

Leonard once did a book about the ‘coffee shops’ cities used to have… seems strange… so many different kinds of coffee in so many places… with food… I think different food in each… I don’t know… I think all I’d like is a cup instead of a needle… so sanitary.

       “We’re all sterilized Mortimer, are you ready?”
       “I’m ready.”

Through my veins… I might not be able to sit and drink anymore, but they can’t keep a man from reading…

       “Mr. Blithe, we’re all done here.  You’re welcome to take a seat in a recovery room and catch up with the day’s events if you like.”

I like.

       “I’d like some violent news, some current events, and maybe some historical retrospectives to wrap it up… no human interest…”
       “Of course, just find a chair, Mr. Blithe.”

 
 

60 Miners Dead In Crude Island Squid Attack

Crews continue to search two square miles of coastline on Crude Island’s southern most shore, looking for survivors of this morning’s attack.  Crude Island, located equidistant from America’s pacific coast and the islands of Hawaii, is the world largest plastic island and represents the most valuable deposits of recyclable plastics and soft metals on the planet.  In today’s attack, sixty miners were left dead and hundreds more were injured when a giant squid attacked a resource reclamation mine.  It is not clear what prompted the attack, and little is known about the species responsible for the deaths.  Today’s disaster comes as controversy mounts over resource mining on Crude Island.  To the chorus of voices calling for a moratorium on mining, marine biologists have now been added.   They argue that certain species of squid have found a way to metabolize a wide range of plastics, and will continue to attack mines that pose a threat to their food source.  The governments at work on Plastic Island have been quick to offer a counter explanation for the escalating attacks, suggesting that the shallow waters around the island are favorable squid breeding grounds.

Suspicious; I wonder if humans can metabolize giant squid.

       “Mortimer, this is just a final check to make sure your injection is swimming safely in your blood stream.  You’re welcome to stay and read as long as you like, we just need confirmation of satisfaction before we can stop monitoring you.”
       “I’m fine.  I mean the injection is metabolizing just fine.” 
       “What?”
       “I’m fine thanks.”

It’s easy to enjoy the dancing catastrophe when you have so little to loose.  Would I enjoy these stories the same if Belay were still around?

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Opinion: 
What Are We Running From?

Biodiversity loss. Land use. Freshwater use. Nitrogen and phosphorus cycles. Stratospheric ozone loss. Ocean acidification. Climate change. Chemical Pollution. Aerosols loading in the atmosphere – not to mention a strained centralized economy that does not afford much chance of personal wealth accumulation. Is it any wonder that citizens of the system are turning to religious groups for comfort and consolation?  Should we be surprised when even devotedly secular voices seem to imperatively exclaim “run!”
       The most surprising development, in this new order of cults, gurus, and humanist manifestos, is that older, more established, institutions appear decidedly left behind.  Even the Abrahamic Alliance, infinitely more sophisticated and subtle in its cosmological pronouncements than the Judaic, Christian, and Muslim traditions it was formed out of, has not been able to harness the doubt and confusion building in legions of young people.  And though the AA’s youth league, and their notorious Oceanic Forces of armed arcs and organized flotillas has managed a confident media campaign, anonymous internal sources suggest that if the power were to go out, and not return, their ocean army would be just one of many leaving the shores of the Americas in a bid for survival. 
       Most notorious amongst the cultic upstarts are the Fire-Starters; a terror to parents and government nodes alike, known for disguising vague political protestations as petty vandalism.  Until recently, so little was known about the group that it was impossible to say anything coherent about their theology. However, with numbers growing, details of the once secretive organization have begun to emerge.
       Formed more than a hundred years ago, it has taken the group much of that time to gather any kind of serious following. It is only in the last two decades that membership has blossomed into something resembling a congregation.  Though many creedal details regarding rules and rites remain a mystery, the Fire-Starters’ primary eschatological belief is now clear: our civilization is moments from collapse, with ocean bound escape the only available means of human survival.  They believe our government has narrowed the field of human capability so extremely that it now excludes the basic skills humans will need to survive the collapse of the System.  This conviction has led to attacks on government buildings and employees.  It is a circular political argument to be sure. The existence of large groups of disenchanted youth waiting for a sign that the end is upon them is certainly a good way to ensure that such a sign will eventually be seen.  All of this has led more than one commentator to note that it is not religion, but escape, that cult members truly hunger for.
       However, it here that the apocalyptic impulse of the times quite ignominiously reveals itself. For just as the government accuses the Fire-Starters of paranoia, vandalism, and ultimately treason, it is itself engaged in drills and contingency plan practices designed to address just the kind of scenarios that cult leaders describe.  The similtude has not been lost on some government employees who, in an attempt to warn citizens of impending disaster, have felt it necessary to differentiate their ideas of apocalypse from those of “religious zealots.” 
       And then, finally, there are the groups who while professedly secular, have their own bent, escapist trajectory.  The Operators of the world’s online economy, to take the most obvious example, seem to be spending longer and longer hours in their virtual offices – and to be spending more and more lavishly on their digital avatars.  Casandra Corporeal, dean of cybernetics at the Alium School, has described such virtual escape as “the scientific materialist’s yearning for transcendence.”  Adding that “when life becomes unbearable inside the four dimensional walls of our reality, any human with the capacity for panic will try to jump over, under, or behind the curtain.”
      In every hue of the kaleidoscopic human imagination, the need for departure is being felt.  Whether the reasoning is religious or scientific – the motive environmental or economic – it seems at least possible that one billion people, worrying in unison, cannot be wrong.  And though our leaders’ penchant for metric certainty rarely allows it, perhaps we might consider the wisdom of our collective intuition: if everyone is sure it’s no longer safe here, maybe it isn’t. If everyone knows something is coming, maybe something is.  Are your prayers prepared, is your lifeboat ready, is your parachute – golden or otherwise – ready to deploy?                       

Maybe they’re scared something is coming, and everything will change… or maybe they’re scared because we’re stuck here and there’s nothing anyone can do about it.  Either way afraid.  Maybe when there’s really no escape, you have to believe in it’s plausibility to keep going.  Maybe belief like that is creative because it creates a possibility where there wasn’t one before?

Just one more… to lighten the mood.

 
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This Day In History: The Banana

To date, humanity has survived almost two centuries deprived of the delights of the commercial banana.  And, though it would be hard to convince a child of our time of this, it has now been exactly one hundred and fifty years of life with the synthetic banana, that incandescent, sickly-sweet, tapioca stand in.  Although one might look at the carefully shaped plastic wrapper of this imposter and have a vague inkling that it has never been and never will be safe to leave out on floors or city walkways, surely none of us can imagine the joy with which our ancestors consumed natural potassium rich food stuffs only to be further delighted by the slippery prankery the peel made possible.  No fine and modern people, we have not known that joy.
       However, whether this is to be the ultimate state of affairs has just now, on the second centennial of the great banana extinction, been called into question.  As they always do, the bitter droughts that grip our continent’s central plains brought extreme winds this year.  Yet it was these winds, shifting sand and dried soils, that uncovered for a team of archaeologists an ancient seed bank thought only to have existed in the ambitions of our ancestors.  Primitive though their storage techniques were, and muddled as their language and computer systems appear to us now, heritage seed varietals of the ancient banana were found intact.  It is no secret to the food procuring nodes of the system that humanity subsisted on bananas for long stretches of our pre-history.  Billions of dollars are now being spent to return us to those modest beginnings.  With a four to six week plan just announced, two hundred years of deprivation will be ended in what this author predicts will be the most explosive food fad of the year. Say it loud, the banana’s back!

I think it’s me that needs to go back… this present is too strange… maybe if I go back far enough I can find a way forward.

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II.

2:30pm – Having completing his walk through the Old City, Mortimer rests in a private room at the public library.  Although allowed by the terms of his purchase to use all six walls of the room – the ceiling and floor included – for the projection of anything he might want to watch, he gazes at the solitary image of an ancient French baker, cover page of Gaston B. Mean’s “Brief History of Malnutrition,” sequel to the enormously successful “History of the Rise and Fall of the Caucasian Empire.”

 
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       “Thank you for choosing Municipal Emersion and Projection, your selection ‘A Brief History of Malnutrition’ will begin following a word from our sponsor."

I can’t wait.

That was strange.  Now for the feature presentation.

 
 
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       “In the centuries before the critical wars, a ‘global’ sentiment emerged in parallel with the incredible material wealth of the years of plenty. A vocabulary of world citizenship seemed to breach out of humble humanisms which were, on their own, patently inert.  It was only with quantum technologies, with ways around the spatial limitations previously recognized by men, that some tactile experience was added to the romanticism of lonely poets.

Who had no one and were so convinced that everyone was theirs.

       With the experience of vast distances collapsed, of every novelty or vista at possible fingertips, global connection became personal, transcending rhetoric and ideology.  Countries were compelled by the mood of the times to harmonize laws and wages with other nations, as the premise of categorical differences between peoples and cultures broke down in the face of cascading evidence.  Perhaps if the petroleum peoples had not moved so smoothly to a liquid hydrogen fuel for both land and air transport, the spreading economic integration and codependence might have piqued and tapered off.  As it was, cheap liquid hydrogen became the medium that finalized the tethering of an international society begun in the industrial age.
       Large shared economic zones soon developed, and while some of these represented merely the opportunism of Imperial nations who had not yet moved on, in some areas it was possible across nation states to work and travel freely, without concern for the eccentricities of local laws or customs.
       So convincing was this global village, this egalitarian sentiment – so valuable to so many peoples and governments – that it was not possible to simply relinquish it in light of changing circumstance.  Following the first global financial collapse, it was not even possible to blame the flawed economic modeling from which the disaster resulted.  Instead, it was assumed that some inaccuracy of execution was at work; that a failure to properly administer algorithms and maxims must be to blame.  It is the mark of a civilization decadent and over ripe that it is unable to change its mind; fatigue simply does not allow such an expenditure of energy or creativity.  But, as time would tell, no operational mistakes had been made and further catastrophes served only to prove the impotence of ideas so dearly held.

Could you believe something so completely that it would be easier to die defending it than to change your mind.  Maybe if you believed it long enough, there wouldn’t be a mind to change – the idea would have taken over completely, animating everything with its logic.  A person who believes in nothing is appalled at the believer’s blindness and naïveté; they can’t reconcile the use of resources on a blind hope. Anyone who believes something deeply considers the beliefs of others to be failed attempts at an otherwise admirable goal; they appreciate the project but regret a dead end.  I should pay attention, I’m paying for this… 

       The dependence and connectedness of the world’s global citizens, an attractive and semi-spiritual sentiment, meant in practice that governments and economies were so entwined and indebted to one another that pebbles dropped in one jurisdiction caused unpredictable and unwanted ripples everywhere else.  These turbulent waves brought to civilized life a random quality exacerbated by climatic vacillations themselves brought on by five centuries of industrial growth.  The terms recession and depression eventually lost their meanings and gave way to the admission of permanent financial chaos. 
       In the distress of diminishing wealth and growing poverty, great stores of natural resources and raw materials silently changed hands.  Countries who had acquiesced to the world’s great powers through times of prosperity now smashed their fastidiously fattened piggy banks, buying up oil and aluminum, sulfur and wheat.  Not only did formerly wealthy nations face higher prices for the necessities of life – the results of new tariff regimes – but they also faced a change in the character of consumer life.  The countries that acquired the world supplies of lumber, plastic, and steal, were not in every case interested in financial gain, and so did not wish to return to the assembly of affordable, disposable, commodity goods.  It quickly became clear that their interests were preservation and security, and that these goals only sometimes overlapped with the manufacture of toys, running shoes, or condensed grain snacks.
       An exacting scarcity decided many of the responses of previously affluent nations; one could not say that British and American business leaders actively sought changes in the way they produced their goods and services, but rather that the need for austerity became a new, guiding hand.  The revolutions that swept both corporate and consumer life were thus children of necessity, perhaps the only reason that civil war was in so many cases avoided.

If necessity is the mother of invention, who exactly does invention birth?

       For a time, many nation states were able to hobble along by rationing their domestic crops and resources.  It has often been suggested that if environmental catastrophe had not entered at such an inopportune moment, many nations would have recovered from their consumer fantasies by means of a generational transition that scaled back expectations.  It was, of course, not to be.  The energy and attention required to reform formerly affluent communities was so great that efforts to preserve natural resources came completely to a halt.  By the time the new policies of allotments and allowances were put into comprehensive practice, unfathomable calamity had enveloped the natural world.  Humanity had been distracted, while another Eden was lost.

Calamity.  Calamity is the child of invention.  And out of calamity?

       Most historians now agree that the collapse of bee populations was the beginning of the end of the mono-cultural agro-systems that had fed metropolitan areas for centuries.  A vague and poorly understood pathology referred to as ‘colony collapse disorder’ had been used to explain a precipitous loss of numbers in commercial bee populations, but it was no more than a name for a misunderstanding.  Herbicides, pesticides, and fungicides, had been loading in all animals exposed to industrial farming, and the combination finally overwhelmed bee populations, with a host of parasitic intruders finally pushing the honeybee to the brink of extinction.  Within a few growing seasons, almonds, hazelnuts, cashews, blueberries, strawberries, apples, mangos, lemons, limes, cucumbers, squash, onions, broccoli, coffee, coconuts, and cotton had all ceased to be viable commercial crops.  Within a few more seasons, more than forty more edible crops had also ceased to be viable.

I had a strawberry once… I think.         

       Something had to be done.   However, as is often the case, the remedy proved worse than the disease, and attempts to use other insects to pollinate crops quickly caused new problems.  Bats that had kept insect populations under control for years were overwhelmed by the quantities introduced by new the farming techniques.  It is possible that the addition of insects to bat habitats would have aided population growth, if the insects themselves had not been carrying the noxious combination of pesticides and herbicides that destroyed the bees.  As it happened, a fungal condition called White Nose Syndrome exploded with the introduction of contaminated insects.  Mortality rates in some caves reached 95%, and within three years insect populations reached infestation levels everywhere they were introduced, causing the destruction of the very crops they were introduced to pollinate. 
       It was at this point that the advocates of wild food finally drowned out all other voices.  It had for many years been their suggestion that as long as staples like rice and wheat could be distributed commercially, individuals should farm their own produce and catch their own meat.  It would be especially easy, they argued, to do this if commercial farms were returned to something like their former forests and grasslands. It was during these very public debates about the future of food policy that a new, highly contagious cancer, was discovered in raccoons living in and around urban centers.  Thought to have begun in Tazmanian Devil populations, this transmittable cancer was discovered to spread through physical contact.  Immediately, the small mammals and rodents that had been paraded as the faces of the wild food movement were so contaminated by contagious malignancies that they were banned for human consumption. Scientists feared, not without grounds, that the consumption of undercooked meat could allow the pathogen to jump the special barrier.

Everything hits at once.

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       The immediate concerns of newly impoverished nations were simple.  So much had been lost so quickly that by the time the looting ended, all that remained was a paralyzing hunger, followed closely by fears of malnutrition and cannibalism.  It was this scarcity of viable food sources that initiated comprehensive government controls.  The corporate entities that had been puppeteers for the world’s nation states were now offered an ultimatum:  merge with government and its goal of national survival, or relocate sales and marketing to wholly virtual markets.  No government any longer felt that corporate use of energy or material resources could continue; there simply was not enough of either to allow it.  Thus it was decided that in exchange for giving up their enormous empires of goods and services, business leaders would be given unfettered access to the virtual realms and their vast economic potential.  Those in our own time that bemoan the limitations of the digital landscape and its pathological materialism would do well to consider what was saved by its allowance.  Without the offer of a promising emerging market, there would have been no chip with which to bargain, no bargain by which to regain control of the money and resources controlled by multinational business.  In this way, governments regained control of the material world, and lost forever control of the virtual.
       As businesses shifted operations to virtual domains, citizens were asked to give up all but the most energy neutral of their possessions.  It is true that most were allowed to keep antiques, toys, and books that required no further resources to operate, but it is also true that those who had their technology, transportation, and homes taken away, cared little for the few old photo albums they were allowed to keep.  Finally, to make the transition complete, downtown districts and city centers were stripped of the permits necessary to operate restaurants, movie theatres, or bars.  Our own city saw its downtown preserved in the form of a culturally vacant tourist promenade, designed to allow a kind of historical connection free from the dangers of consumerism.  Thus the ‘Old City’ preserved the architecture of the Gorge, allowing our leaders to use it as a living monument to a hedonism that had proven so destructive. 
       However, it must be said that during this remarkable transition, there were some virtuous individuals who considered the drastic action of world governments to be more than just an insult about resource management.  Such individuals, out of what we should consider today to be genuine altruism, took it upon themselves to plant seeds of innovation that would grow into altogether stable sources of nourishment.
       It was the bioengineers working in aerospace that offered the most immediate solutions.  Having worked for decades on genetically altered grains that could feed astronauts on extended missions, they offered governments robust quinoa varietals that produced as many as five harvests each year. Shark genes responsible for constant tooth growth were blended with metabolic markers in long lived sea turtles to allow the new quinoa to grow for extended periods, uninterrupted, with near constant food production.  The complete protein offered by the grain itself meant that as genetically synthesized oil producing plants were perfected, a new processed food staple was achieved – a device that looked and tasted remarkably like the hamburger, so beloved by the years of plenty.

Packed so tight, out of such lightness; the heights of condensation… like humanity itself, concentrated, denser and always denser.

       In truth, the hunger that gripped peoples never before confronted by any scarcity whatsoever was so traumatizing that it produced a kind of religious experience, a revelation certainly, about the way they had been living prior to the famine.  As packaged government rations began to erode the initial panic, the mood of entire nations became reflective.  The conclusion that the past had perpetrated a great crime against the present began to permeate society.  A name was given to the times before, the Gorge, and a lexicon of gluttony and childish hedonism was used to narrate an impasse from which a single road forward had been found.  As synthesized vitamins and supplements made their way into people’s ration packages, and their general frequency increased, the conclusion seemed inescapable – there could not be production and consumption without planning, no part of the subsistence of human civilization could be subject to either chance or desire – a plan was required.
       Political leaders were not ignorant of this new and stirring mood. Quietly, while their food ministries developed more and more productive synthetic crops, an entirely new organ of central government was created, one that utilized the relative calm brought by rationing to plan ahead.  It was decided that not only were people correct in believing that there must be a mathematics of production and consumption, but that such a sentiment itself was integral to humanity’s future.  Leaders quickly realized that even more important than the operational calculous of homeostasis itself, was the general understanding that such a metric form of survival was absolutely necessary.  It was this belief that produced the Executioner, the first synthetic human, the operative charged with executing the mathematics of survival laid out by central government.  It was to be the first great triumph of the genetic sciences; engineering live social agents, growing and cultivating them, employing all that was known about that was then known in the emerging field of epigenetics.  It was not enough for them to be biologically adapted to the demands of subsistence planning, it was necessary that pertinent environmental factors be included in their development to tighten or loosen specific genes.  It is true that they were warriors after a fashion, but it is also true that the individuals and the civilization for which they fought was comprehensible to them only across an uncanny biological divide.
       After two generations of rationing and citizen re-education, the Executioners were ready to assume control.  They were put in all positions of management and decision making, while at the same time allowed to decided the criteria for advancement of ‘natural born’ individuals.  In their infinite wisdom, they decided that no able-bodied individual should ever ascend beyond a task oriented vocation – only individuals with physical disabilities, open as they were to robotic hybridization, would be put in charge of human relations and personnel management.  Thus a new bureaucratic hierarchy was created.

And so, the ones who weren’t born... and so could not die… ruled.

       There were other strange and unforeseen developments concerning things as serious as human reproduction, as banal as city planning, and as unavoidable as food delivery.
       Quite controversially, the Executioners began to discourage the physical act of intercourse, sighting its extremely high health care costs, and the obvious overabundance of humans on the planet.  Historians of psychology have suggested that if business interests had not already been so successful in convincing people of the value of the VORSA (virtually operated remote sex apparatus), then the Executioner’s plan would have run into more resistance.  As it was, suspicions regarding the dangers and inappropriateness of sexual contact, growing silently for years, found expression in public policy.  Needless to say, there were holdouts. 
      Turning their attention toward the organization of urban centers, the only place humans were allowed to live under new zoning laws, the Executioners decided that the great folly of previous city planning had been the insistence on the permanence of personal space and property; why allow individuals to get attached to houses and apartments when the results of such attachments were congested and convoluted transportation systems?  It was decided that there was no reason at all to allow such a situation, and that, as a remedy, a city should be constructed on the model of a train system so that each individual’s personal dwelling was a traveling car within a vast network.  By linking these trains to an intelligent grid, a reversal of all transit was achieved.  An individual’s home, always already moving, could adeptly navigate through the city, arriving at places of work or leisure all without any input from the individual – save for a tightly kept schedule mapped out on central computers at the beginning of each month.  The homes could make necessary purchases on their own, and intern themselves for repairs when necessary.  It was a highly structured approach to time management, but one that seemed fair given the immense efficiency inherent in being retrieved form work by one’s dwelling.  The cycling apartments also changed the nature of surveillance.  The central hub of the new network, the Nexus Terminal, housed the offices of the Executioners and allowed citizens and their homes to be monitored daily as dwellings passed through the giant terminal.  City Hall and much of law enforcement were combined.  Already monitored at work, citizens no longer returned to private homes, their apartments now the property of state and government.  (Image 1.1 below shows the original architectural plans for the Nexus and nine rings of apartments.)

       Certainly the strangest decision made by the Executions surrounded the food system.  No one had thought that they would feel the need to change anything given the success of the National Sustainability Program that, beyond eradicating famine, had created their executive role.  Sentimentality was, however, never an issue for these logicians, and they soon decided that synthesizing foods into nutrient dense liquids only to further graft them on to caloriless cellulose hamburger molds was too preposterously arcane no matter how deep the cultural love of such a sandwich ran.  It was decided that the liquids themselves would be shipped throughout the urban network, and administered at safe injection sights throughout the city.  There were, again, holdouts, and to counteract the allure of black market food, the Executioners approved a single, government operated restaurant for each area of the city, which would continue to serve solid food.  Thus the Gastropod was born, to nearly unanimous applause and adulation, although crowding and wait times functionally meant that a transition to a liquid diet had been achieved for the vast majority of citizens.
       Fears during the Gorge of an authoritarian state in which force was used to limit the lifestyles and choices of individuals were proven naïve, when, in the final case, it was the individuals themselves who were transformed, not the available options.  Historians have remarked that it would have surprised earlier thinkers to witness just how free these future individuals were, and just how little they wished to use or abuse their freedom.

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III.

7:15pm – Mortimer stands silently outside the Gastropod.  An Executioner checks the paperwork and physical fitness of those lucky enough to have dinner reservations.  A wave of what he assumes is nostalgia washes over him; there seems something so civil and optimistic about the ritual.  It occurs to him that he feels sick, and perhaps to this point in the day has consumed too many words and not enough calories.

 
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       “Morty, have you been waiting long?  You look kind of… possessed. Are you feeling okay?”
       “I’m fine, I haven’t been here long, I was just reading, made myself a bit sick.  Where’s Belay?”
       “She’s inside, don’t you have your chip – right you ditched it, such a rogue monkey Mortimer – wait a minute reading, like the news, why the hell would you do that?  Come on.”

Everything that is strange and unnatural about our lives these days is the result of National Sustainability and the Executioners. Everything that creates this inert monotony… we never speak of the past… we eat only reconstituted food pastes, we hardly speak of the present… and we never speak of the past…

       “Hey, you having fun, little lost in thought, little Mortimer goes on an adventure?  We’re going to have dinner like before, that means conversation k?  When we sit down, maybe you can share whatever internal states pass behind those beautiful eyes. And hey, remember what she wanted, Morty, Belay’s a freak, there’s no room for her in our – I mean the operation.  It’s not worth the risk.
       “Her love?”
       “Love.”
       “I don’t love her, but I respect her.”
       “That’s what I want to hear, Mortimer, you’re nothing if not predictable.

Was it always that way?

“Always have been.  Come on your lady awaits.”

 
 

7:26pm – The aroma of simmering, synthetic meat, floats through the air, winding its way around the astringent comfort of sanitizing cleansers.  An army of hands and feet pass back and forth energetically, all meticulously dressed in the attire of historical reenactment.  Belay sits alone at a table for four – she’s pretty but dirtier than most of the patrons.  Her eyes dart back and forth following the anachronistic delicacies, her unwashed hair piled high on her head.

 
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I think she calls them dread locks – an expression of fear?  I don’t think I get it.

Belay: Mortimer, you made it, you look… you got past the Executioner?
Mortimer: I feel fine, I just, I’ve had a rough couple of days – things haven’t seemed… quite right lately… everything seems different, different than before… but I couldn’t for the life of me say how though… its nice to see you, you look the same… it’s comforting.
Belay: Well, you never were much on the follow through; let’s hope something has actually changed this time.
Artimice:  Hi Belay.
Belay:  Artimice, I must be in an exceedingly good mood – or I’m breaking my own rule about nostalgia – but I’m actually glad to see you.
Artimice:  That’s a strange thing to say.
Belay:  So Morty, Art told me you’re inches from fired, how is that even possible in this economy – I thought they had you all on lifetime contracts or something?
Artimice:  No, Morty’s job has performance standards, he can be fired on the basis of mental instability.   If he’s found unfit for work, exile, if he’s found unfit for life, Liquidation. 
Belay:  Liquidation?  Are you fucking serious?  Morty did you know this when you signed; or somehow it never occurred to you that your mental health would ever be an issue even though the person closest to you is basically a mirage?”
Artimice:  ‘The Mist,’ always quite liked that nickname, makes me sound dangerous but unassuming – ‘who took that pie off the window sill… oh I think the mist got it.’
Belay:   Shut up Artimice, you’ve never had pie.
Artimice:  Have so.
Mortimer: Stop it you two, as charming a walk down memory lane as this is, I will actually have to go and talk to my boss on Monday, so I would appreciate some more constructive banter.
Artimice:  Okay, I say you let them make you an offer.  They’re going to have some ridiculous treatment planned for you – if it’s daily injections, tell them you quit, if it’s just therapy and exercise, tell them you’ll do it.
Mortimer:  Shouldn’t I tell them what I can do for them, like what I’m worth or something.
Belay:  I have to say Mortimer, the way you learn – slowly, a bit ugly, kind of transparent (sic) – it’s not without charm.

She still loves me.

Belay:   I don’t love it, but I respect you.
Artimice:  Morty, still smitten? … Really, I’m sure we can find you another women at least this contrary – so very common.
Belay:  Morty this is how I knew, you know, that you were hopeless; you let this shadow follow you around, uttering empty sentences… we used to have a rule about puns, you and me, remember?
Mortimer: Poor puns pose as painstaking… alliteration…
Belay: You do remember.

                        She still loves me.

Artimice: Can we talk about something else?

       “High there, my name is Carl, and I’ll be your server this evening.  Can I get you anything to drink to start off?”
       “I think we’ll start with a bottle of the 1995 replica Saint-Emilion.”
       “Wonderful choice Madame, how many glasses can I bring?”
       “Morty will you drink with me?”

Of course dear.

       “Of course Belay.”
       “Art do you want to drink?”
       “I don’t do drugs, you know that.”
       “Can I get you something non-alcoholic Sir?”
       “I’ll have vitamin E and simple syrup please.”
       “Very good, I’ll be right back with your beverages, and I’ll take you orders at that time.”

Artimice:  He seems kind of wooden.
Belay:  So, Mr. Lye, serious and longtime no see, what have you been doing with the hours?
Artimice:  I’ve been working hard, as you know the… my… well it’s been a busy time for the operation.
Mortimer:  I think his cult is getting ready to do something drastic.
Artimice:  Oh yeah, nothing drastic about the way we’re living now. Sitting around, ordering synthetically replicated wine from many hundreds of yearses ago while grafting machines layer bovine imposters – we’re getting ready to leave… and it’s not a cult.
Belay:  Well I’m glad to see nothing’s changed. Still waiting for your big debut, huh Art?
Mortimer:  I think they’re planning to go to Antartica.
Artimice:  Shhhhhhhh.
Belay:  Really?  What do you plan to do when you get there?
Artimice:  Start again, what else?
Belay:  You do realize that without all this, without the machines to replicate youArtimice:  What…?
Belay:  Eventually you’ll have to…
Artimice:  Don’t say it.
Belay:  I’m just saying… there isn’t any other way of making more humans without all the cyborg led machinery.
Artimice:  Can we talk about something else?
Belay:  Hey, I’m with you.
Artimice:  What do you mean?
Belay:  I think it’s sad, our dependence on these main frames and motherboards.  Our love affair with machines is obviously over.  We’re in a dependence phase now. No love left at all… just like every other tragic romance.

                        Is that why she left me?

Artimice:  I heard the centrifugalists have a perpetual motion machine, but they’re not sharing it because they don’t think humanity can handle the technology.
Belay:  See, that’s what I mean, the future of human civilization now rests on breaking the laws of thermodynamics… ridiculous.
Mortimer:  How do you find these things out?  You don’t read any news, you don’t like listening to… anyone. 
Artimice:  I’m very dedicated to my work.

Artimice. Free from the effects of erotic attraction or distraction: virgin.

Belay:  I think we were better of in the Gorge, before the machinary worked so well, at least then desire and lust were still intact; real sex, and the risks it entailed.  We wanted things, and things from machines; there was a gap between what we could get them to do and what we wanted from them.  Now?  Completely contorted; we have nothing, each of us, and the machines do everything we could even ever think of.  It’s hard to want anything now, genuinely, I’ve said this before, it’s a crisis of desire.
Artimice:  Come on, we were like zombies back then; coffee in the morning, beer at lunch, Aspirin in the afternoon to combat the headaches. And then? What?  Back home afterwards to the necessary drugs: birth control, insulin, anti-psychotics – then on to the recreational ones as soon as we were done with our chores: liquor, marijuana, cocaine, MDMA, hamburgers, TV. Not on my watch. That’s not a life. Even if I believed in the virtues of desire, such appetites do not genuine desire make.  Even now, everybody goes home and plugs in, spends all night at the mercy of these cellular monitoring programs.  How is that any kind of freedom? How is that sane?  I think everyone should be like us and give up the crutches.
Belay:  Like us?  You mean like your friends in the cult?
Artimice:  We have a name.
Belay:  Right.  You’re such a fucking hypocrite.  You don’t dream either; you just have a different way of avoiding sleep.  You go home, plug in, like everyone else, and listen to the ridiculous fantasies of your ‘leader’ all night. How is that any different?  What are you going to do when you get there?
Artimice:  What do you mean?
Belay:  What the fuck are you going to do when you get to Antarctica Artimice?  Eventually someone will have to have sex with someone else, you realize that, like, naked and in the same room.  What are you going to do, milk the males for sperm and use insemination devices to drive it into the females?  Like zoo animals?
Artimice:  I don’t want to talk about this, it’s disgusting.
Belay:  It’s not disgusting. Morty, look at this man, right here, this one you’ve spent so many denuded hours with. Even he, if his plans work out, will be forced to have real flesh sex… and to think you could have had all of that, without a cult, without a seven-month sea voyage, without leaving the comfort of your home…
Artimice:  Are you quite done?

I’m starting to lose my appetite.  Her hair looks nice.

Belay:  Yeah I’m done.

       “I’ve got a vitamin E and simple syrup for the gentleman, and for the couple, the Saint-Emilion.  Now my specials today are ….

The specials calmed them down… maybe I’ll get to eat something.

Artimice:  I’ll take the Tete de Veau.
Moritmer:  Can I please have Fillet of Soul?
Belay:  I guess I’ll have the Fillet of Sole as well…

            “Okay, very good.”

Belay:  I’m calm.
Moritmer:  Calmer.
Belay:  So, besides the cult, what have you been doing?
Artimice:  I’m writing a book.
M:  Nobody writes books anymore, and you hate reading.
Artimice:  Yeah, but I don’t mind writing, and I think a book is just the kind of iconoclastic accomplishment a character like me would have accomplished.
Belay:  What’s it about?                                                                       
Artimice:  It's called, “If They Did It.”  It’s an alternate history of World War II.
Moritmer:  In what way alternate?
Artimice:  Well, when Hitler gained power for the second time, he asked all the nations of Europe to return the Arians they were harboring, to return them to Germany and Austria, so they could restore racial purity.  He offered all of the non-Arian citizens of Germany in return so there wouldn’t be massive population imbalances, and so that all the nations of Europe would be more racially pure.  The book imagines what would have happened ‘if they did it.’
Belay:  Wow.
Moritmer:  So what would have happened ‘if they did it?’
Artimice:  Well, I think Hitler would have been satisfied, so that by means of one egregious act of racism, another would have been avoided.
Belay:  So Europe would have become an even more nationalistic and ethnocentric place?
Artimice:  But World War II would never have happened.
Moritmer:  Bizarre.
Belay:  If you ever finish that book I promise to write a comic book in response just to protect people from it.
Artimice:  And what would it be about?
Belay:  I don’t know, something super hero based, maybe the virtuous Swastika Man and his ongoing struggles with the evil Illusifer.
Artimice:  Always so sure about right and wrong.
Moritmer:  She’s an ethical anthropologist.
Belay:  Not so common, these days at last.
Artimice:  Anyway, I’ll probably never finish the book.  We’re leaving soon and it’s a much bigger drama than anyone could write… really.
Moritmer:  So what, you leave and a story starts about a pinched civilization farming Antarctica?
Artimice:  That’s the plan.
Belay:  To save human culture by means of apocalypse?
Artimice:  Something like that.
Belay:  Was he always like this?
Moritmer:  I think so.
Artimice:  I’m what mathematicians like to call a highly non-linear unstable free boundary problem.
Belay:  Are you for real?
Artimice:  Reality is a hard fight for existence.

                        It seems that way.

Belay:  Okay, I’m done.
Moritmer:  Wait, please don’t go.
Artimice:  The formula works!
Moritmer:  Stop it, I love her.

                        Gasp – not me, but you get the idea.

Belay:  And.  Of course, I loved you too. Once.   
Artimice:  “…but that was long ago in a far away land…”
Belay:  Shut up.
Moritmer:  Please shut up. 

       “I’m going to have to ask all of you to be quiet or leave.”

                        One way or the other.

Artimice: Thanks very much Carl, I think we can cancel one of the Soles.

 
 
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IV.

11:30pm – Mortimer lies in his bed, content with his meal, but uncomfortable still.  It occurs to him that Belay was trying to say goodbye and that he should have had the steak to mark the occasion.  He wonders if all of this could really be real.  He decides that, in fact, reality is not a hard fight for existence – existence prefers reality. He injects his monitoring program, and lies back down to sleep, sad that the day is over… the last day that love was for him more than an idea.

 
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Bodies without shadows, forests without trees… the light fills everything, wide and flat, sand and sky… day without night… welcome to the dessert of my life.

Objects without shadows, without secrets, without negotiation, become what they are… unbearable.  The world, this world around me, stands on nothing… there’s nothing to hold it up… what will stop it from disappearing entirely?

My life can’t be explained anywhere else; it has to be explained here… can I explain it?  Can I bear this desperate explanation?  Can I bear the ultimate and non-negotiable reality of the world, of my life, as it is?

The real is the ground on which all human life is built. It races out from every frontier and edge, devouring the hinterlands.  It has no objectors, no ambiguity or mystery to impede it.  The real is growing like a dessert; welcome to the desert of the real.

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